My dark times

[Drek]

Decided to share 3 more of my poems here is the first:


Again

Again,
the erythrocytes,
poisoned in wine... heat in the stomach,
the alcohol burns morbidly...
The head empty,
there is no sensibility inside it...
the brain is poisoned in sea of alcohol...
Like a dead body in the middle of an ocean,
the mind floats in alcohol,
floats and loses contact with the body...
Again,
the bed is bitter again,
a picture of you,
and vomits around... the evil speaks instead of my heart...
Again,
in the holes,
alone,
I hide from God...
I'm hitting,
but the wall strikes back bloodily,
it's stronger than me...
The courage and determination,
don't have patience for my stupid appearance,
they can't stand me anymore...
Sunken alcoholic,
addicted to the true alcoholic agony,
hooked to delirium,
i drink desperation...
Again,
again i consume various chemicals,
so that my heart cannot say a word,
again i leave,
to lose you...
I don't deserve to love you,
no... you are too pure,
to be tainted from my love,
from my nest of sins...
Again,
again I leave you,
to only be a memory,
just a memory... pure memory...
I kiss Lucifer's hand,
and go into the darkness...